Scatter Brained Mommy

Once again I have let enough time lapse before posting a new blog. I am so good at making lists and more lists to keep myself organized but somehow that to do's don't make the connection to my brain! Between Marvelous Marci, playing, behavior moments, working, therapy, play groups, behavior and me time (just kidding - not much of that!) my blog time has been cut out of my lists. I will try to do better - REALLY!

I hate to admit it... especially since I've always been proud of being a positive person.. but I think I'm fighting off depression - I think it's due to heartbreak and the pain I feel for my sweet daughter. I hate to be depressing in this blog but I have to air out some feelings.... I feel so guilty as this disorder is not about me, it's about MARCI! I always have selfish thoughts - envious of the mom who can just take their toddler to the store without meltdowns or to the park without leaving in tears or the ability to walk through any door - be it a store, church or home and not have your daughter throwing a fit... To be able to play with and around other kids. I've mourned the loss of people I thought were friends but now are distant and thankful for those who have given prayers and a shoulder when it's been sorely needed. I miss having time for me, for Marci research and the money and time for therapies that are needed. I am thankful for all of those wonderful mom's, kids, people who have gone before and forged this path that we are embarking on. For all of those that have shared advice, support and hope. I'll get off my pity pot for now and will share some fun photos of Marci over the weeks I haven't posted... we've enjoyed carnivals (for autism...) boating and just being there... Enjoy!

Playing in the sand at the Autism Carnival....

Cool bubbles!

Boating at Pineview....